Six Months Later

Amazing things going on out there in the blog world. People documenting their lives to no end, setting up their autobiographies to be read by everyone and anyone, and I am reading them and I am not sure why. Bored, sometimes...... looking for something.......probably, curious as to how people are managing their lives, cause it ain't easy. For whatever reason. I am going to start blogging more. Putting it down on paper might help me figure me out, like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle, maybe I can put the picture together.

Being 52, widow, not so much fun. I liked every decade up to this one much better. I guess it's the being alone part that I am not comfortable with, maybe why I am crawling around all these blogs sites, looking for a connection. Looking at love through a window. Afraid to make the "real" people connection cause I know when you lose someone it hurts like hell! I worry alot, but don't do anything to tackle the issues that make me worry, kinda pathetic. I know......".it's the first day of the rest of your life" I just don't believe that like I use to.

So, note to ME, lets just see if this blogging thing can shake me out of the doldrums, the boredom and help me to connect again........at least if only with ME.